"YOU COULD'VE JUST CAME TO ME!"- says the person who never gives me the time of day and never has.

well, i was thinking lately about how amanda wants me to go back to courage kenny so bad so she can appear as a caring and "supportive" cousin to her in-law who happens to be employed there. courage kenny didn't help me with my goals whatsoever (the reason why i'm able to walk is TRAM HOLLOWAY and his arp therapy)- I was the one who took the iniative and passed my damn knowledge test to get my permit. i went through the shitty behind-the-wheel training at courage kenny and they failed me each time with the reason, "NEEDS MORE THERAPY." another man that lived in the apartment i used to live at in burnsville got his license from courage kenny and he's a paraplegic. he can't walk AT ALL and he managed to get his license from that dump. jesse also has his driver's license and he lived in the burnsville apartment also, i have better balance and am more ambulatory than him because he depends on a FOUR-WHEEL WALKER to get around. so i'm positive courage kenny and gillette are taking advantage of my LACK OF advocacy. amanda can claim she cares about me ALL she wants.. along with my mom and the rest of my family members but i'm an INCONVENIENCE to ALL of them because everyone refuses to help me get my driver's license back. EVEN the driver and the cause of my car accident has had his license back for probably AT LEAST TEN years. amanda expects me to go to the cooliez courage kenny so i can be a mindless rehab. tool to make her look good in front of her in-laws. that's funny.. i wasn't aware that she was ALSO in the car with me during the car accident since she seems to think she has knowledge of the appropriate things i should do to get better. IF SHE CAN'T HELP ME WITH WHAT I WANT AND NEED TO BE HELPED WITH- I CAN'T HELP HER LOOK SUPPOSEDLY "CARING" AND "SUPPORTIVE" BY WASTING MORE OF MY FUCKING LIFE AT COURAGE KEN-DO-NOTHING-BUT-TAKE-ADVANTAGE-OF-THEIR-VULNERABLE-CLIENTS-NY. i've already paid for behind-the-wheel drivers lessons where they told me i was safe to drive, i just needed to get a vehicle to take the behind-the-wheel test with. i'll simply never actually live my life capably- people assume they can take advantage of my lack of advocacy to progress with my life at all- it doesn't matter if i did ALL the steps i needed to in order to be able to do these things. might as well put me in a damn coffin because people assume i can't do anything that actually requires brain cells. i'll be a 40 year old loser that can't drive because no one will advocate for me. and people will play stupid when i'm dead- "SHE COULD'VE JUST CAME TO ME AND TOLD ME SHE WANTED HER LICENSE AGAIN!" no.. I COULDN'T. YOU NEVER EVEN HAD TIME TO FUCKING SPEAK TO ME OR RETURN MY DAMN CALLS. I WAS A BIG FUCKING INCONVENIENCE TO YOU AND YOU PROVED THAT WHEN YOU NEVER ANSWERED THE PHONE ALL THE TIMES THE EMERGENCY ROOM CALLED YOU. DON'T FUCKING LIE AND ACT LIKE YOU WERE MORE CARING ABOUT ME BECAUSE YOU WEREN'T.